Meditation Saturday!

I woke up this morning and took my therapeutic package treatments before driving around for awhile, then came back home. I'm starting to run low on some of my products, but I am going to keep pressing. I ate a banana and mango. A lot of thoughts were coming to my head because I feel like I've pretty much exhausted all of my resources to get rid of this man made disease. In the past few months, I've went to WholeFoods, Kroger, Walmart and spent an average of $30 on fruits and vegetables that's on the Nutritional Guide. I meditated when I got to my room and fell asleep and had a dream that made me feel optimistic. I had a dream that I was in a tall building and the doctor told me that right now you have a virus similar to a common cold in children without actually saying that I'm cured. So then, I kept confirming and asking her so does this mean that there is no traces of HIV in my blood work just a virus resembling that of a common cold virus? She said yes and I asked her again to make sure then I woke up.

I woke up at ease because that was one of the best dreams that I have had for a long time, however now I'm back to reality I just hope that it can really come true. On yesterday, I spoke with one of the receptionist off of the list of different specialist that I received from the HIV facility site. She was a another nice girl that was very understanding and was showing compassion. I told her that I've recently been diagnosed positive a few weeks ago and my work schedule conflicts because I work from 6:30am to 3pm right now since I'm in training.She initially wanted me to come in at 3pm. She took down my name and said that she was going to relay the message to the doctor to see if it was OK for me to come in on this coming Tuesday to fill out new patient forms at 4:00pm and come back either Wednesday or Thursday to get labs done at 4:30pm. I told her that would be feasible for me to come around those times. She said that she'll contact me to see what the verdict is about me coming around those times so I'll just keep my fingers cross.

Right now, I am downstairs watching TV. I'm so glad that I'm off on the weekends because I was so stressed out doing so many things at the hospital. It is cold outside as of right now, and I am trying to stay as warm as possible being that my immune system is somewhat compromised at the moment and I don't need to get sick or anything. I was never a fan of  fall and winter weather, I mostly like spring and summer weather. Saturday's and Sundays are days that I look foward to because I can sleep in mediate my thoughts and get myself refreshed to start a new week.