Day#86 (Reflections!)

Dr. Sebi Wife herbs (International Healing)

Oregano Oil 3x (James Destroy Diseases)
Olive Leaf Extract

Breakfast: Apples and Spring Water

Lunch: Avocado

Dinner: Strawberries and Blueberries

Oregano Oil 3x (James Destroy Diseases)


Today was a pretty great day at work, a few days ago was two of my coworkers birthdays. One was the 25th of June the other was the 26th of June. So on some down time, another coworker and I rode to the grocery store Publix to pick up a birthday cake and birthday cards. When we got back, we went to the conference room which was like 6 of us including the lab chief and give them their birthday card and cake. I sung them a little solo of the "Happy Birthday" song and they were excited and said, "oh you sound so good," I said thanks. Afterwards, all we did was talk for a little over an hour and went back to the lab and at that point it was almost time to go home.

I was a little sleep deprived today at work because my best friend from college called me a little late last night and we stayed on the phone for about 2 hours. I only got about 5 hours of sleep. The whole time, we were reminiscing about old times when we were in college and started talking about how people was trying and did get over and took advantage. She was telling me that people had these expectations as far as the role that we were supposedly suppose to play as far as showing them pity when they had their problems whether it was relationship issues, death in the family, or just giving them valuable advice as a whole. I told her you're right not to be funny, but these people gave us their ass to kiss, they just weren't humble. They hitting me up a few weeks ago talking about their father passed away 3 months ago.

I know it sounds relentless, but what the hell do you want me to do we are in complete different states now. I have done so much shit for ungrateful ass people in college as far as riding them off campus to get something to eat from Fast Food Restaurants, when the cafeteria closed and when they didn't have a vehicle at the time, taking people to the grocery store to use their food stamps, and so many other stuff free of charge at times, that I can't even count on my fingertips!

Now, they're suffering the consequences and have a lot of baggage in their life and blowing up my phone and my friend's and hitting us up on Facebook. We both said enough is enough, with those people back from college we've been a listening ear to peoples problems and showing them pity. These people or so called friends which turned out to be associates that we thought had our best interest at heart turned out to be the complete opposite. These people knew that my college best friend she and I both lost our mothers at a young age and we went through all that adversity and bullshit with jealousy, people talking behind our back, and so many other things. But yet, know one didn't show us any pity or wanted to listen to any of our problems and you going to hit me up and send me a text message a few weeks ago and tell me that your father passed away 3 months ago...I'm like are you serious?

And the thing that kills me is that you pledged in an organization in college 15-20 line deep and out of all your line brothers and sisters you came out and pledged with you mean to tell me, No one on that line (which I'm pretty sure he probably didn't really tell anyone) you couldn't expressed that bad news to, but hit me up like around 9 pm at night? What was really your purpose of joining that organization if you're not going to network, connect and build a relationship with your line brothers and sisters? Oh I get it just to look cool and popular because everyone else was doing it SMH.

At this time, I have way too much on my plate to be dealing with some of the people back from college and even some family members of the things that they need to learn to cope and deal with themselves and stop being so damn dependent! I'm so Immune to bad news it's not even funny at this point I have zero expectations. As far as showing emotions, I believe something is seriously wrong with me it's very hard for me to cry because I've been through so much in life and I think that's one of the reasons why people be telling me these bad news and thinking I'm so strong! When I was in that near fatal car accident on Christmas Day in 2015, when someone hit and run and as I was in that car that flipped 5 times at an 85 mile speed the distance of a Football Field... All I could think about as the car kept tumbling was when it was going to stop.

When the car stopped flipping, I crawled out of the upside down car immediately, I had a Fight-or-Flight response because I have seen so many movies where the cars engulfed in flames which it was, but it didn't explode and we nearly missed a light pole and was near some barb wires. Witnesses that was on the interstate seen the car flipped, however, no one didn't see that person that hit and ran. Everyone was stunned to see that my sister and I made it out with just scratches, cuts, bruises, and a blood shot eye no broken bones. They thought we were dead because the car was completely mingled to the point the muffler came off the car. And although I never mentioned anything about my near fatal car accident on Facebook, although I have pictures in my phone to this day, that I never posted some of my family members knew and news travel. Even after that car accident I didn't Cry, and Even after I found out I contracted this "Spell of a Disease" I didn't Cry!

But yet, I'm pretty sure that news got back to those same people that I did so many stuff for from college and no one didn't call my phone to offer any sympathy or better yet messaged me on Facebook. What the HELL is the purpose of having 617 friends on Facebook?? Like really, but you go message my brother on Facebook in place of messaging me like he was the one in the got damn accident. SMH  I'm telling you people's mentality and logic these days are so FUCKED up!

Towards the end of the conversation with my best friend and I she was just giving me motivational quotes from Maya Angelou, Oprah Winfrey, and Pastor T.D. Jakes. Some of them were some great quotes and others were a little bit Cheesy to me that she was reading from Oprah. All I did was just listened, and started dozing off to sleep and we hung up.