Day#85 (Who would've Known?!)

Dr. Sebi Wife herbs (International Healing)

Oregano Oil 3x (James Destroy Diseases)
Olive Leaf Extract

Sarsaparilla, Guaco, and Concansa tea

Breakfast: Apples

Lunch: Apples and Mangoes

Dr. Sebi Bromide Plus Powder/Lily of the Valley, with Strawberries, Bananas, and blueberries smoothie

Dinner: Strawberry banana smoothie


Back around December 2001, I remember when my mom's first cousin on her dad's side of the family (which they were the same age) which is my second cousin was real sick to the point where multiple close family members and friends came and gathered at the emergency room. We didn't have a clue what the hell was going on even her own mother had no idea either which is sort of expected because she was known what you call the "Silent Generation" which are those born from 1925-1945, so therefore, majority of people around that time don't have any sense of knowledge or understanding when it comes to different disease and ailments that doctors talk about. We were at the emergency room for 4-5 hours and doctors came and announced to the family she has "PNEUMONIA"

The doctor never announced to the family she had "FULL BLOWN AIDS" all they said was Pneumonia. My second cousin, which was my late mom's age was living with HIV/AIDS for 10+years ever since the 1980's, but no one knew. I did remember her skin on her face was always bad looking when we used to go over to her house which she was living with her mom (my grand aunt) and my sister and I would always play Sonic on her computer. Her son was born in 1986 and he died from complications of AIDS/HIV in 1992. It was said that her boyfriend I don't know if he was gay or straight gave it to her and her son. My mom was a little old school you know part of the "Baby Boom Generation" born from 1946-1964. So she knew the exact ailment that her cousin had when the doctors said "PNEUMONIA" because that's the last stages when you have FULL BLOWN AIDS. So you know me, I was always inquisitive, I asked her what did the doctor say let me call her "Susie" had?

My mom paused for a second and said "Susie" and she spelled it out (she didn't want to say it and never said it) has A.I.D.S. I covered my mouth although I didn't understand what that was I knew it was something bad because I would always hear people talk about it on TV relating to the ex NBA basketball player Magic Johnson. Which that's another topic in itself that I want to talk about I just have so many guys! And my mom said the doctors said that it was nothing that they could do. In June 2002, as summer was approaching, I remember visiting her at the house in her last days and my poor grand aunt didn't know what to do and I saw my cousin DYING each DAYYY, AIDS was taking its course and eating up her body! This is frightening! I'll NEVER forget! Her whole body was shaking uncontrollably in the bed like she was possessed and having body convulsions.

A couple of weeks later, my cousin Susie passed away exactly 10 years later after her son died. At that time, 10 years was the life expectancy, when diagnosed with HIV/AIDS even with medication. Oh gosh years passed and I would always go visit my grand aunt because they stayed right up the road from my house I always believed in visiting the elderly and sick and she would always talk about how her daughter never told her she had HIV/AIDS and she could never figure out why her grandson used to cry a lot back in the 1980's. I know why because of the complications of "This Spell of a Disease" that he was suffering. She was suffering from Alzheimer's so she would remember a lot of old time stuff and I used to complete her sentences because I already knew what she was about to say. One time, she came to me when I got off the school bus and ask am I from around here and you're a handsome fellow. "I told her yes" So that really made me sad to know that she didn't remember who I was because of Alzheimer's disease she died in 2015.

On yesterday, when I came home from work, as I was posting my comment on Queen Selah's blog my sister came in my room and told me some bombshell news that our mom's friend, but we consider her as an Aunt from back home and this is what my sister said, "She said guess what?" I said what. Let's call my mom's friend "Mary" She said, "Aunt Mary" has HIV. I said WHATTT!! You have got to be kidding me. She said our aunt told my first cousin and my first cousin told her and now she's telling me. She has this Rare skin disease called Lamellar Ichthyosis which she was suffering from all her life, but I never knew what it was. I found out on my own because I watched the discovery health channel a few years ago and was able to diagnose her condition. Her skin looks just like this

Not to be funny, but this disease makes her look grotesque and her skin peels all over the place because it itches and it's flaky. Now, I'm in disbelief, she is like in her mid 60's she was a very devoted Christian women she, and my late mom both would have bible study and everything together talking about the Lord 24/7.  Who would've known? My sister said she was told she had HIV for about 4 years and the guy that she was messing around with may have been gay or bisexual! I said WHATTT again this was just too much. I said who was fucking Aunt Mary?!? See this the SHIT I'm talking about if you are going to be "gay" be gay not be bisexual and "playing both sides of the Fence" (messing with men and women) and then if you bisexual put a Muthafukin condom on and stop spreading diseases. I mean people are literally sick passing around this SHIT like it's the "COMMON COLD" which I have not had in 4 years since 2013. They know they have it because I don't care what anyone says there are always signs, but people just disregard those signs and don't give a damn and just a squirrel chasing after a damn "NUTT!" People are just NASTY!

I said this man took advantage, why? because she was mostly lonely with this disease all her life never had children, never really been with a man for her to allegedly (I'm not sure yet) get this disease at that age in her 60's??? I'm telling you being lonely and isolated sometimes can definitely be a blessing and a curse because you get so lonely you look for intimacy or you yearn for that person's attention you think that loves you in all the wrong places! My mouth drop because I don't know if it's because after my mom passed, then my aunt which is my mother's sister passed away a few years ago is why she felt lonely. I just see that it appears people will definitely take advantage of you if you're lonely or an introvert!

I'm just tired of receiving depressing news I mean blows after blows!