Just Another Challenging Day

Today, has been another daily challenge road in my life waking up every morning with this disease known as the dreadful three letter words H.I.V. My life has not been the same ever since I found out on Aug. 26th 2016.

On that Friday morning, my intuition told me to go to the HIV testing site because I remembered back in May a day after my birthday, I wasn't feeling well and vomiting nonstop and having constant diarrhea, I always questioned myself did I have this disease since then? I thought I caught a stomach virus or maybe it was something bad that I ate that was the only time I really experienced any harsh symptoms. The only symptoms I had since then before being tested was chronic headache every now and then and not much of an appetite

So, I drove to the testing site walked in and the receptionist gave me a form to fill out my information as well as a petition to sign, I believe it was to sign against the state for not wanting to have governmental assistance for hiv medication and etc. I thought to myself at the time why are they giving me this petition sheet to fill out this was just an indication of what I call a negative symbolic feeling before I was tested. The phlebotomist took out the hiv testing kit and pricked my finger it had to have been less than 10 min and he asked, "When was the last time I was tested? I said March here at this testing site and April in the lab at my primary care physician both tests were negative. Then, he gave me a pity look and said well I'm sorry ,but this time you tested positive and he showed me the two dots/lines.

My mouth dropped, I kept saying things like its no way are you serious, I was extremely worried and remained sane. At that point, I went deaf and left out of the room, one of the consultants was trying to console me and give me his business card. He said he had hiv for about 15 years and he's doing fine and taking medication it's no need to worry. That's when I knew right then and there I couldn't talk to a counselor because they would make me feel complacent of having this disease I'm not trying to treat hiv I'm trying to eradicate it. He also was telling me about the Ryan White Foundation and that I needed to schedule an appointment to submit a copy of my pay stubs to get medication and assistance to start treatment. At that time, I was working a temporary job in the lab and I didn't have any insurance. I said when is the closest appointment I could schedule he said September 14, I said that is too long and the process for that is going to take forever I never went.


I drove back home in silence and remembered this great healer that I researched back in 2015 Dr. Sebi that cured all diseases known to mankind. I called the office located in California that same day of my Aug. 26th diagnosis and started off ordering the $375 therapeutic package his cell food products really flushes out your system because its targeting and purifying each cell throughout your body. I'll post the description of the products later on in my blog. When I got home, I just laid down in my room depressed for a couple of days and listened to music. I got on the computer went on Google to do some research on cures from Dr. Sebi that's when I came across Queen Selah and how she was cured from the virus. I became an avid reader every single day since August and if you go on her blog you would see a lot of my posts are on her blog of me asking a lot of questions starting off anonymous and then created my blogger name and she responded so quickly than I expected. She is so strong and a great mother/Queen to her son and she feels like a long time friend that I have connected with in person just reading her entire blog. Hopefully, I am able to meet her one day when I'm cured. She is the one that motivated me to write this blog today because otherwise I wouldn't have done it.

How I contracted HIV:

I am going to keep it short and simple being naive and promiscuous by using a hookup app called Jack'd to meet or link up with gay, bisexual, and curious men. I was practicing some risky sexual behaviors and not being cautious like I should have. I'm mostly a homebody so I would use the app out of boredom. Since my diagnosis, I have deleted the app off of my phone.