Challenge, Challenge, Challenge!

Good Evening everyone, I took a few days off from writing been going through it emotionally just sitting back thinking about life. I woke up this morning took my herb treatments around 5 am and went to work at the hospital as usual and cheated a little bit. I may eat one bad thing that's not on the nutritional guide for the past few days which was a Chick-Fil-A biscuit. For the rest of today, I had a banana, avocado, applesauce, and a green apple. I just sometimes think about the what if's. What if I'm not cured in December? I feel pretty good, I just be slacking with my eating sometimes.  Yesterday and today, I wrote on Queen Selah's blog to ask her a few question about searching for another specialist being that my initial specialist wants me to come back within 3 months that's just to long for me. She basically gave me the answer that I was dying to hear by lying to them if they ask me if I was referred to their facility or if they don't ask to say I was just recently diagnosed and in urgent need to find out my viral load and CD4 count although I've been diagnosed in August.

I want to give myself at least a month and a couple of weeks to see my lab results. She made a good point the FDA and doctors lie to us all the time, and I said why not do it vice versa. She really answered a lot of questions that I wanted to know today to help me facilitate my healing journey. I feel that she is drawing near with answering questions about her journey and how she cured herself. I could totally understand that, at the end of the day she has to move on with her life and she has a son to raise she can't continuously answer questions forever, but whatever she does decide to do I will never forget her Heaven Sent blog and Dr. Sebi's teachings and how it has helped me changed my life. Even when I was HIV Negative, I have never felt this good For Instance, last year I was slightly anemic and felt real sick. Now, I'm not anemic anymore because all of the Iron tonic herbs that I've been taking.

I also told Queen, that I am going to help carry her legacy as well as Dr. Sebi's legacy and that she helped inspired me to write my blog, whenever she wishes to no longer visit her blog anymore the readers can view my blog and ask me any questions that they may have as well as me answering any questions the readers may have on her blog. She told me to keep writing and that's what I am going to try and do when I'm emotionally stable because I do have my days when I don't feel like writing, but I will try my best to push myself to do it. Tomorrrow, I will try to start fresh again and go to war.