Saturday, March 13, 2021

Back By Popular Demand

 



Hey everyone, I know you guys are probably wondering what the hell happened to Phinest he just went ghost missing in action. Yeah I know its been a little over 3 years since I last wrote on this blog and to be quite frank with you all, I've just been enjoying life the best way I know how as stress free as possible. No I'm not cured yet, but I have been working on myself both mentally and physically first then resume back to getting rid of this spell of a disease. I really appreciate you all for all of the concerns and messages. As far as a health update the last time I went to the Infectious Disease Specialist was the end of 2019...yeah it's been awhile, but I'm very in-tune when it comes to my body that I think it's what keeping me afloat. My T-Cell was around 292 and my viral load was 44,000. Which I was quite surprised because I thought it was much higher because at that time it had been over 2 years prior since I was on those HIV drugs.

There has been so much going on in the world with so many fatalities related to COVID-19 riots from injustices related to race issues and all types of stuff. I'm not surprised because I told you guys in one of my videos back in 2017 that I felt something wicked was going to happened under the Trump Administration. Everything is all about population control when it comes to health and all these senseless shootings that's continuing to go on. I see that they have removed some of Dr. Sebi's lectures off of YouTube and now when you search things on Google it's a limited amount of pages that you can search things pertaining to Dr. Sebi's lectures about health. It's sad how now when you type in Dr. Sebi's name in Google it doesn't give you a whole lot of information about cures like it used to when I first started this Blog. Was Nipsey Hussle's death one of the causes of why they are trying to eradicate all of Dr. Sebi's teachings? After all he brought a lot of awareness about Dr. Sebi other than Lisa Left Eye about Dr. Sebi curing all these different diseases. Google and Youtube does go hand and hand with each other....That's a WHOLE SEPERATE POST.

Anyways going forward I finally came to a conclusion after doing numerous amounts of research in the last three years on Dr. Sebi's Alkaline Electric Group on Facebook and watching different YouTubers that talk about Dr. Sebi's teachings, I need to go on a fruit fast of course with herbs. Fruit fast ONLY because fruits have a lot of fiber and a great way to detox and heal the body faster at an optimum level of course being CONSISTENT which I've struggled with over the years. Fruits also have natural sugars that will help with giving some type of energy. I also came to a conclusion that Everything on Dr. Seb's Nutritional Guide is not as beneficial depending on your illness and condition. This is why I said you have to be in tune with your body because everybody gene structure is different on what they can consume on the Nutritional Guide. That's a whole different conversation, but the goal is to start a fruit fast real soon with the fruits that I enjoy eating personally by bending the rules slightly when it comes to the Nutritional Guide as long as I can which I'll discuss that in a later post.






Wednesday, November 1, 2017

Ozone Blood Therapy (2017)




(3 Minutes)

Specialist making solution in the back for Ozone Therapy and journey to facilitate healing with patient healing herself with brain cancer with this treatment.


(9 Minutes)

Thanking the readers and support and eating Alkaline Vegan fruits raw and cooked vegetables! Also, had an epiphany about general things in life talking about Insurance as usual and Ryan White Foundation!


(13 Minutes)

Getting the needle put in my arm starting the process of Ozone Therapy and talking about Dr. Sebi Court case and Akeila Strauss


(29 Minutes)

Talking about Dr. Sebi Court case etc.

Day#182 (No Pain No Gain!)

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Back Log: October 1, 2017
  • On my 5th treatment out of 10 of Ozone Therapy
  • No longer experiencing any discomfort or pain in my anal area
  • Feeling very optimistic about the cure in a couple more months
  • Alda the consultant at Dr. Sebi Cell Food called a spoke with me a few days ago
  • Different Guys have been hitting me up out of the blue and it's one particular guy that keep stalking my profile on the app although I don't have my face picture shown
  • Michael the guy that cured himself from HIV/Herpes finally read part of my blog about a month ago and text me about it
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Friday, September 8, 2017

Day#159 (Ozone Therapy Treatment 2017)



Me singing a little snippet quietly of Rihanna's "Diamond" song lol singing brings me life even if it's early in the morning! 

Ozone Water being made at the Facility you can actually see the bubbles and it smells different and taste different it's supposed to supply my body with even more oxygen


The finished product of the Ozone Water it is recommended to drink within 24 hours if refrigerated or 12 hours if not refrigerated I guess for it's potency! It was about $20

This is the catheter with the lubricant that was used to insert inside my rectum 4 inches for the Ozone Therapy it cost $75




The discussion about what is Ozone Therapy before the actual procedure (9 minutes)





The actual Ozone Therapy Procedure Part 2 (18 minutes)



After the Ozone Therapy, I experienced some pressure in the abdomen area holding the Ozone for 20-35 minutes for it's therapeutic effects. It felt like I wanted to use the bathroom and I experienced tons of flatulence!

Day#158 (Story Time!)

Hey family, it's been awhile, but so much has happened these past few weeks. On last week my grandmother passed away, so I to go back home, of course I had to find another job, I had my first Ozone Therapy Treatment Wednesday for the warts and herpes, the second treatment is today Friday (which I may video record the experience without showing my face) I will touch basis on some things relating to my thoughts and theories on Magic Johnson, Oprah Winfrey, Jesse Jackson, and Rev. Al Sharpton etc. Here are some preview snippets of videos..a brief overview of me talking

Preview of Dr. Sebi and Michael Jackson Conference with Oprah, Jessie Jackson, and Rev. Al Sharpton

Preview talking about Magic Johnson




Tuesday, August 22, 2017

Day#141 ("You live and You learn")





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About two weeks ago, my college best friend that I told I have "This Spell of a Disease" calls just about every week (Which sometimes I don't be feeling like talking on the phone) to ask me how was the Alkaline diet coming along and stuff. I said it's coming along pretty well you know much better than last year when I first started. I be wondering at times, why don't she just read my blog to find out exactly what I'm doing, I slightly tell her briefly when we talk on the phone, but not detailed like this on my blog. I told her a few times before, that I have been dedicating my time writing my blog since towards the end of last year which I can't believe that I have written 100 posts. Maybe her reading my blog may be a bit too much for her to handle I don't know.

But do you guys remember, when my best friend tried to pressure me towards the end of last year about talking to a counselor especially after finding out my diagnosis? I told her that's out of the question because counselors are only trained by the books and all they're doing is cataloging information that they can't really relate to my situation which at the end of the day they are going to make me feel complacent of having this disease and probably want me to tell my close family members which is definitely not going to keep me on the right track with being cured. When I told her I saw the guy on the app after being off of it for 3 months on New Years Eve (Which I posted the text Message Snap Shots) that infected me with this death trap, she was pushing me to contact the police. I kept telling her I really don't have sufficient evidence at the time that it was premeditated of him knowing his positive status at the time while engaging in sexual activity.

But I myself know that it had to have been intentional because when he first contacted me on the app, he did not have his Positive status on the app, but now a day before New Years Eve you have on your status HIV Positive (Undetectable) I almost regurgitated when I saw and posted it on here. And the thing about it, I really wasn't interested in him initially, it took me a week or two to finally decide to chat and eventually meet up. Once again showing pity for people. Not 1, 2, or 3 times that we met chatted and hooked up did he ever mentioned his status. We even Netflix and chill and watched movies, he offered and fixed me some juice, which I have never really experience these things before so it was all foreign to me and I must have like the attention I was getting and looked what happened.

Being an introvert and lonely and not being able to express yourself has its pros and cons because people see and feel the vibe of your innocence and they take advantage because they know you're vulnerable and yearning for attention that is lacking from somewhere whether it's from family or something traumatizing that stems from your childhood that is the underlying condition of such loneliness. Hmm I be wondering because I was abstinent for 6 years and couldn't really explore my sexuality back then and even now because of negative feedback from family and society as a whole caused me to be sneaky seeking attention and validation from guys off the app whether it was chatting or an occasional hookup (which I didn't have unprotected sex with every single guy). That is some low self-esteem bullshit on my part! I do be wondering if I was out about my sexuality would this situation that I'm in right now would have ever even happened? I just don't know...But I do know that my best friend was stressing me the hell out, by pushing to try and contact the police at the beginning of this year. I stopped talking to her I believe for about 2-3 Weeks.

So then, I finally decided to take her advice and give the police department a call and told them about the situation and they was telling me all kinds of stuff that I would need to hire a lawyer which I would have to have sufficient evidence that it was premeditated and not only that I'm not out about my sexuality and I thought about lawyer and courtroom fees. I thought about how mentally draining and stressful all that would be. I would rather put my money towards the herbs for healing screw all that other stuff. So this time a couple of weeks ago, she asked me have I ever thought about ever contacting HIV Positive people in groups around the city and stuff. Again, I told her no because most other HIV Positive people already have embedded in their mind that they are complacent with living with this disease for the rest of their life, I'm not with that. Speaking of that about a month ago, I was chatting with this guy on the app, he was about 39 years old and he kept blowing up my inbox, mind you I don't have my profile picture displayed on the Jack'd app especially after finding out my diagnosis, but he does.

I wasn't really interested in this guy for anything else, but chatting and rarely that because I would ignore him, just like I did with the guy that gave me this death trap. We chatted for at least 3 weeks on the app and he starts telling me this pity story first about how he had cancer that he beat. I told him sorry to hear about that... So you know me I start asking him tons of questions just to dig a little deep for information like have he ever been in a relationship with a guy (Which I have never been) and was he from around the area, etc.Then he still blowing me up about everyday in my inbox and finally tells me that he has been HIV Positive for 16 years. I went numb when he told me this because I have never came across someone on the app that actually told me their status I would see some guys have on their profile Poz or (+) or Undetectable meaning HIV Positive. When he told me this I disregarded that he even told me that he was positive and chatted for a little while and never chatted with him again. 16 years??? I just can't see myself living with this garbage for that long of a time period.

I stopped talking to him on the app because I really don't want to hear to much more of his pity stories. Maybe after I'm cured if I still have the app I may contact him again, but as of right now no. He just seems so complacent too, I mean reading his profile he just seems to relax for me to even tell him about herbs and healing and stuff.

You guys see how the cycle repeats itself, when you begin to really dig deep and ask questions before actually meeting someone whether off the app or face to face. This has really taught me to look at things from a different perspective, while having this disease, so when I'm cured it will never happen again you live and you learn it's only making me stronger because the average person would have never probably even downloaded the app again, but I'm trying to get as much information as possible to avoid life costing mistakes in the future.

Then, my best friend tells me you know there are actually people particularly guys intentionally getting infected and infecting other people with HIV just to get special housing and a place to stay. I said that's sick and disturbing because it's funny that she said that because I remember when I first was diagnosed at the HIV Testing site they were trying to get me to sign up for the Ryan White Foundation, I already knew what the foundation was all about because that was the Charity event that Michael Jackson would donate to his close friend Ryan that had AIDS and passed away in the late 80's or early 90's. Because I didn't have my own insurance, I was underneath my father's they were just telling me other alternatives just in case I wasn't able to afford the drug and stuff by submitting a pay stub or proof of income and I remember them telling me that I could also have an opportunity to apply for special housing assistance if I needed a place to stay and couldn't afford it.

So when she told me that I was saying to myself people are really doing things intentionally just to get special housing and assistance for HIV Positive people smh...Hmmmm still jotting down and cataloging information...

Tuesday, August 15, 2017

Day#134 (When There's a Will There's a Way!)



I thought I was going to have a mental breakdown for the past couple of weeks. I just took deep breaths and gather myself together accordingly, I mean blows after blows from the news that I have been receiving lately. Let me rewind back, do you guys remember at the beginning of this year when I told you guys that I went to one of my primary care doctors (Not HIV Specialist) because I had genital warts externally around the anal area shortly after my HIV diagnosis a few months later and they prescribe with the topical solution called Podofilox. Check, Well the medicine fixed the warts externally because it never showed up anymore. Now lets fast forward to June 29th Specialist#2 appointment remember when I told you that my specialist wanted to perform an anal pap smear for some anonymous reason and I didn't understand why, but now I do.

About two weeks ago, my specialist referred me to the Colorectal Doctor because they saw something suspicious in the lab results. Mind you, I never knew why I was being referred to the Colorectal doctor because Specialist#2 never told me the Colorectal Doctor did. I explained to her my symptoms and it's crazy because that same day I went to the doctor I started experiencing this burning sensation not only inside my anus but around my buttocks it felt like I was sitting in a pile of FIRE!! I  did tell the Colorectal doctor I did have warts externally the beginning part of this year a few months after my HIV diagnosis, but I never thought anything of it to much. She said lets take a look to see why you are experiencing this burning sensation in your anal area. She and another lady that was her assistant had me bend over and stick something up my rectum, but I didn't know what it was and it was so excruciating, but I took the pain like a "G" as if nothing happened.

After she was finished examining inside my rectum, she said she see the reason why I have been experiencing such discomfort. She said you have little warts inside your rectum and you will eventually need surgery to have them remove before it gets bigger and the possibility of turning into cancer. She said most likely you have Human Papillomavirus (HPV) My eyes stretched "SURGERY?" I disregarded the cancer part because she will not speak that upon me or in existence. Now see, If I didn't knew any better, I would have panicked and carried on in that place had I not known of anything about Dr. Sebi, if fibroids can be shrunk through herbs and alkaline diet so can warts. I said just to be curious how much is this surgery going to cost on average? She said she wouldn't know I would have to call up my insurance to get a general estimate of how much it was going to be. So when I walked out of the office the receptionist which was an attractive sweet handsome black man called my insurance for me just to see if I even have the benefits to cover the surgery. Come to find out he said no because whatever plan I chose I didn't include surgery which I didn't think I would have needed surgery, but you live and you learn, He advise me to always include surgery on my insurance regardless of the cost that may come out of my paycheck. So I just took a mental note and thanked him for checking for me.

The next day, I decided to call the facility of where the surgery was supposed to be performed and they gave me a procedure code to give the people and the anesthetist of how much it would cost for the whole procedure. Since they said I didn't have insurance to cover the cost of the surgery initially it would cost me $15,000. I said to myself you guys most be out of yall everlasting damn mine if you think I would have paid that type of money that's not even going to heal the underlying condition just treat it. Then, they said with a 70% discount it would cost around $4000 for the procedure. Yall still out of yall everlasting damn mind I'll rather spend it on herbs that I know will cure it if I continue the alkaline diet. I told them never mind, I'm not going to proceed.

So I took it a step further upon myself to do my own research, you see when there's a will there's a way there has to be another alternative outside of surgery, although taking the herbs and the alkaline diet is the best route, I googled Holistic doctors that gave me an idea because all I see in the Dr. Sebi Alkaline Electric Living Group is people posting articles about holistic doctors dying mysteriously, so obviously they're doing something right. So I gave this holistic doctor a call around the city and explained my symptoms that I have been having. She said their consultation is $150 to speak with the doctor for about an hour to talk about what's the best treatment and to get down to the underlying condition of why I have the warts in the anal area. She said they usually perform Ozone Therapy (Which I haven't done research yet) which would safely remove the warts inside the anal area without any incision or surgery. The cost of the Ozone Therapy she said is about $125 according on how many treatments it would take to remove it. Well that's the best route I see, if push comes to shove if it gets excruciating again.

Around that same time, that I was having the burning sensation around the anal and also the penis area when I would urinate, I decided to make an appointment with the Primary Doctor two weeks ago and a few days ago for them to read me my lab results. I told them to just test me for everything give me a whole STD panel through blood work and Urinalysis. I told them before hand that I was diagnosed positive August of 2016 so it wouldn't be a surprise to them when the blood work come back. Everything came back negative for Chlamydia, Syphilis, and Gonorrhea, however they said through urinalysis lab results they saw some bacterial infection through my urine. I told them to prescribe me some antibiotics because I knew I had some type of infection the first time I came before the results were read to me because of the burning sensation. This was 3 days ago Saturday, I also let the primary doctor know that I saw a colorectal doctor because I had burning sensation because of the warts and he too encourage me to get the surgery. 

As soon as the doctor stepped out, which he is black, I asked his physician assistant do you think that Ozone Therapy is beneficial in removing warts he said "Yes" it's actually safer as opposed to having surgery. So that was good I done my own research on my part through Google because the colorectal doctor didn't tell me that. I said because the price that they told me about the surgery was insane and he said he totally understand and he was a foreigner too. The doctor prescribe me with three different types of Antibiotics and about 30 minutes later after taking it I didn't feel good at all. I had about three episodes of diarrhea which he said I would have. I slept for about 5 hours because I wasn't feeling well. Plus after coming from the Primary doctor I had a flat tire and waiting for 3 hours for the mobile people to give me a new tire which I felt I wasted money that could have been saved because I didn't have the tools to change my own tire, which I know how to do well. Whatever bacterial infection I had it subsided because I'm not experiencing any burning sensation when I urinate or as bad in my anal area. I most likely had a urinary tract infection (UTI).

I tell you it just doesn't get any better then, the temp agency recruiter called me and told me that I would have to start finding another job by next month although they said I'm a real hard worker because Donald Trump didn't allocate enough funds or something like that and I said to myself if it's not one thing it's another, Although this has been the most relaxing job thus far, I'm just so over these modern day slave jobs sometimes SMH. Then, my sister and dad called to tell me that Grandmother has terminal lung cancer it's spreading aggressively and they're giving her 6 months to live. I said don't tell me this, I'm tired of hearing bad news, give her some herbs, my dad said she's barely eating let alone walking. He said" I aint to much believe.." basically disregarding and said you need to come back home soon to take pictures with your grandmother. I said my grandmother has been a smoker for a very long time, although she's had heart surgery in the past she never had cancer and now about 2 years since she's been in the nursing home and quit smoking now she get's cancer? I tell you that is one place I do not want to go is the nursing home if I live to be an old age.

My college best friend called me and my other home girl from college both called me the same week when all of these bad news were taking place. They said keep your head up you're so strong, my college best friend said Omg it just seem like you can't catch a break, you are really going through a crisis (she is the only one that really knows about my status not my other home girl) she said we will conquer these obstacles together. I said yeah I am going through a crisis, but still remaining strong and pushing through. I said I do get tired of the way how my life is as a whole. I'm tired of worrying about money, Health Insurance, Where I'm going to live, always having to work extremely hard and hustle my butt off. When I did used to give Plasma at CSL Plasma last year that Was about $25 easy money in my pocket twice a week, now I can no longer do it right now because I'm sick...It just gets overwhelming and depressing how selfish people can be in this world sometimes, but when SHIT hits the fan and bad things start happening, or don't go their way they can't take the scrutiny. 

I'm just going to take it one day at a time still, brighter days will come.